I was really shocked when I heard that Cory had been found dead, he seemed to have such a bright future. It just goes to show that even when things look 'perfect' from the outside we don't ever really know what's going on with someone. Cory had a great career, a girlfriend who obviously loved and supported him (him and Lea always seemed to be beaming when they were with each other) and he'd also recognised his issue with drugs and, so it seemed, dealt with them. I can only imagine how shocked his loved ones are at this happening so soon after his rehab stay.
A life cut short by his own hand (of course this is not confirmed yet, but seems likely), on his own in a hotel room. What things must have been haunting him to make him feel that way? What was going on in his head? We'll probably never know. But it just shows that it's not what we have that makes us happy, a lesson I hope I can learn for myself- a boyfriend does not equal instant happiness or even improvement. How I'm feeling comes from the inside out and that's what I need to work on. I only wish that Cory hadn't been my wakeup call.
Very sad,
Vanessa
PS I was also shocked by Heath Ledgers death, but I was a lot younger and had yet to have the second of 2 very traumatising life events at the time, it seemed a lot more black and white somehow.
I'm a fan of Glee and was shocked to hear the news.
ReplyDeleteThere has been this inner struggle, for almost a decade now, to try to be happy with the way I am and how my life is shaping ahead of me, but the pessimistic and sad feelings always win out and it's just getting worse. I've never cried as much as I have in the last couple of years than I have in my whole entire life. But the people around are none the wiser. You just never know what another being is going through inside.
Cory is free from whatever was haunting him, but his friends and loved ones must now bear the burden.
It's really awful.........I have to admit I don't watch Glee, but I always liked him in that boy-next-door way, he just seemed so normal. I know how you feel, it's awful to fight all day every day just to exist, I too am not completely honest with those around-although I have explained some more of my social anxiety to my mother, which is a relief and also a new burden, because now of course we should 'fix' it *sigh*-finding common ground online sure helps some but it doesn't fix the problem. And watching people the same as me go year after year with no progress always worries the hell out of me too, then I'll read just one success story and feel bolstered. Yes it can and does happen. The kicker? Only I can make the changes needed for it to have a possibility of happening.
ReplyDeleteI don't watch Glee either, but found out about his death through people talking about it on social media.
ReplyDeleteI agree with both of you that it's hard to get through each day carrying the burden of those emotions, and not having anyone to talk to about it because many people just don't get it. There is this misconception that people should be happy and cheerful all the time, and that anything negative thought or feeling harshes that mellow. I can't count the number of times that people have written me off as a killjoy because I'm not always a chipper and cheery person. I don't think being happy all the time is genuine and natural, and I feel for people who don't know how to show their ugly sides. They may pity me, but I pity them.