This is kind of an awkward post to write, mainly because it's a bit embarrassing but also because the time lines might be a tiny bit out........it's really hard to remember wether you were 12 or 13 more than 10 years on :)
Anyway here it is:
Henry went to school with me, he along with one other boy and about 3 girls made up the 'popular group' that I was for one time in my whole life part of. He had auburn red hair, freckles and an average build, he was super smart and also the class clown, I liked him quiet a bit and we got along pretty well. As a matter of fact he asked me out twice but both times I was so terrified I said no (keeping in mind I was 12) and he ended up dating Kim instead. Looking back Henry's interest in me was the end of my stint in the popular group, as Kim ejected me soon thereafter, I realise now she was probably feeling a bit threatened by me. It was all for nothing anyhow as Henry moved away about 3 months later, the damage was done for me by then unfortunately. I tried to look Henry up on facebook but had no luck- probably for the best anyway.
Ted was my friends friend, I didn't know him at all, my friend Kate and I had a joint 16th birthday party (I invited one person, she invited about 6 I think, so it was small), so he just turned up. He was tall and skinny with jet black hair and blue eyes, he was quiet but friendly enough-I felt attracted to him straight away. In hindsight that was really stupid, Kate had invited him and if I'd thought a bit I'd have realised she was interested in him. Anyhow this ended up with the three of us crashed in my bed along with everyone else asleep on the floor, when Ted and Kate thought everyone else was asleep they had a heart to heart (which, painfully, included a rejection of me, Kate said she thought I liked Ted and Ted said yeah but I don't want her I want you-I know he meant nothing by it but it still stung), which I heard all of and I also got to hear my friend get her first kiss-I wanted to bolt but I didn't want to wreck her moment so I sucked it up and kept quiet. So that one was mostly my own fault.
Aiden was a French backpacker who stayed with us for a couple weeks with his French mate. He was only a touch taller than me, had curly brown hair and brown eyes, he was outgoing and very friendly. His friend was objectively much more attractive but I was drawn in by his personality, and he wasn't hard on the eyes either. It was a fun 2 weeks of teaching them about Australia and laughing about the mishaps translating French to English and vice versa, along with a rather heated argument about how to cook Bolognese correctly LOL But he had a girl friend back home so it went no where. I think he felt it too though because I got a hug and kiss on the cheek goodbye and no one else did. I felt quiet relieved at that point, I was 24 and beginning to think I may never be attracted to anyone again! I remember it fondly :)
Now this is complicated. I'll never roll my eyes at a bold and beautiful plot line again ;) Ben was my eldest sisters boyfriend, the first time I met him I was about 12 I think, I liked him okay but he was always temperamental and stubborn about the silliest things. And he had a huge temper-I won't go into it here but some things he did will never be forgiven by me. He's also is a keen hunter, I know how to use a gun and I will only if I have to (an animal is in great pain) or I'm in danger (an aggressive dog trying attack me), I tried hunting once and I just felt so sad about shooting a fox (even though foxes are introduced and damage the environment), it just didn't sit right with me and I will not go hunting again. When my sister was killed they'd been together 9 years, it was a tumultuous relationship and I'm sure if it hadn't been for the fact that my sister was a real sweetheart it would've ended ages ago. He was devastated by her death, as we all were. He never really moved on at all and has been single ever since, he's a part of the family so we'd see him every few months, see how he was doing, he came to christmas a few times as he's not that close with his own family, he really loved my father and was very upset when he died. We all comforted each other then. When my mum went away on holiday last year for 3 weeks he came by to check on me and help me out with some chores, it was nothing out of the ordinary at all. He's also a bit computer illiterate so I helped sort out his laptop and went shopping with him for a ipod and iphone, I was happy to help and we got along well. Somewhere in there we decided to go to a couple of sporting events, which was casual and fun, we watched some movies and played some video games-I never one flirted or tried to impress him (unless daggy PJs are actually impressive), so I just thought we were friends. Looking back I can see he was sort of acting a bit strange (when I said I might go away to uni he said he'd miss me, just stuff like that. I had 0 experience so I had no idea) and finally one day after he'd dropped in for a visit he texted me and told me he had feelings for me. Thank god my mum wasn't home. I went into an epic meltdown complete with tears, I felt like this was all my fault and had no idea what to do. I didn't feel that way, to me he'll always be my big sisters boyfriend, he's 13 years older than me (I'd actually once stupidly thought if I ever did get married he might give me away, so you can see how badly my world view was upset by this). I also think he had me a bit confused with my sister. A very dangerous thing. So I called my friend who told me to keep it friendly but distant, so that's what I did, I still feel bad about it and I hope I didn't hurt his feelings too badly. At the same time I feel a bit resentful that it'll always be awkward whenever I see him from now on. We haven't gone anywhere as friends since and I haven't gotten a text for a few months-which I feel both glad and guilty about, but he talks to my mum and sister so I know he's doing okay. I don't think I'm ready to be friends with him again just yet, but maybe I'll never be? IDK. The only people who know are me, him and my wise yoda friend S-and, well, you guys :))
Anyway that's it for now,