I've started biting my fingernails again, just a few days ago they were all nice and long but no longer. It's always a sign that something is going on with me, consciously or not, on this occasion I have no idea..........I've been feeling pretty flat lately so maybe that's it, that feeling of, why bother it'll never get better? Coming up to summer and watching people plan things, friends lounging in the park, couples lazying on the beach, plans for festivals and parties-all things I've never done and may never do. Maybe the feeling of another rapidly approaching birthday with no progress? I don't know. Other than that I'm also looking for bits and pieces for my summer wardrobe, something I don't normally do, but I have the desire to this year and I hope it will spill on to other parts of my life. I'm getting some obligatory t-shirts (after a purge, holes, loose stitching, fading and cracked prints all went) but I'm hoping to make them a bit more fun, here are a few I'm looking at:
http://store.xkcd.com/products/just-shy Maybe this'll help me appear less aloof?
http://www.etsy.com/au/listing/129118815/black-sheep-ladies-t-shirt-as-gaeilge-in?ref=shop_home_active The black sheep of the family...not in the conventional way but still true...
http://www.etsy.com/au/listing/156545325/organic-cotton-celtic-languages-ladies-t?ref=related-7 I have irish and scottish ancestry, so why not?
I've bought a couple of dresses and I'm now I'm looking at maxi dresses, I love this one:
http://www.modcloth.com/shop/dresses/swirling-soiree-dress
But I'm worried it might be too dressy, in the pics it looks like it'd be fine for just going down the street (with the flowers removed), but the description does say party dress........I don't know, but I really like it. I won't spend the cash until I'm sure though. Modcloth is bad for ones budget LOL
I also found this blog: http://esmeandthelaneway.blogspot.ca she looks so pretty all the time! I really love her red hair, I also like this post http://esmeandthelaneway.blogspot.ca/2013/08/looking-back-at-past-augusts-and-outfits.html as it shows how her hair and style have changed over a few years.....I think she looks great in all of them :)
Hmmmmm food for thought.....
I'm also thinking of starting a 30 before 30 list, or maybe a life list? Not too sure yet but it seems like a good idea.
Vanessa
PS I'd just like to advise anyone reading this blog in the same situation to go check out a pear by herself's blog, some seriously amazing stuff has happened for her these last few weeks that'll give you hope and cheer you up, or it did me anyhow!
I was just discussing a similar before 30 list with a cousin of mine who is may age. I only have 1 goal, to travel to Europe by then.
ReplyDelete*my age. Sorry I don't know how to edit comments without adding a new one.
DeleteLOL don't worry, I often stuff up comments........:)
DeleteAs for europe, do! It's really lovely! I especially recommend Russia, St Basil's in the snow was incredible!
Vanessa
I bit my fingernails for about a week in elementary school when sonene pointed out to me that it was an act of cannibalism because I was eating my self. Cured me of that habit.
ReplyDeleteMy neverous tick is bouncing/shaking my feet and biting my lower lip when concentrating really intensly. I had a roomate that chewed on the side of her tumb till it became raw and
another that would scratch off her inner eyebrow hairs.
You could try keeping your nails done with polish to ween off the habit again.
LOL I only wish things like that would work on me! I've stopped again now.....my eye has started twitching instead *sigh*
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That happens to me too! It randomly comes and goes, and usually during and after extremely stressful situations. It's annoying...
DeleteYeah it is! And I'm sure it makes me look like I'm about to rob a bank or something :)
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