Monday 11 November 2013

Well here's one for the book

My sister decided to ring the uni to find out what was going on (I won't use the language she used. I don't want to get arrested.)-what happened was: the rejection letter was sent on a glitch and as of right now I have a shiny new admission letter sitting in my inbox. Or a big red flashing danger sign in my inbox. Normally I wouldn't tell anyone about it. But I promised myself I'd be brutally honest on this blog, so there you go. I got an offer. Wether I accept it or not is another thing altogether.
It'll be hard for me academically no matter what, doable but hard. I haven't done any school work in like over 10 years. Emotionally it could be simple (if my sister accepts her offer to a different course and goes too) or hard/impossible (she doesn't....). I can see my sister's point of view, she's working and earning money and that's great! But she hates her job, she gets free rent and her partner is working fulltime-no matter how you look at it wouldn't it be better to sacrifice a tiny bit (free rent remember!) and have a qualification and job you like? To me it's a no-brainer, it's not like she's going to be homeless or have no food or not be able to afford my nieces books etc, her partner has a good job and there are many women I know who are stay at home mums in a similar situation. It's not like I'm asking her to plan a trip to greenland for $5. She's just so frustrating, this would likely benefit her more than me in the long run yet she keeps making excuses or long drawn out ridiculous plans (like maybe she should do a degree part time in the field she's in, and hates, and then do a postgrad, which will take 2 1/2 years. That's a whole 6 months less then just doing it straight up!! What am I missing?), I just feel so frustrated with her. Especially for leading me along and then changing her mind at the last minute like always. If she just f*cking got on with it and did it she'd actually get somewhere, no more whinging about the job she hates, no more competing for lower qualified jobs and more money as well.
Anyway as you can likely tell, I want to be excited and instead I'm feeling miserable I've been given an opportunity I might not be able to take.
Maybe if I buy a motorcycle jacket people will listen to me?
moto jackets


Vanessa
PS Oh and the incel forum has disappeared. I hope it's just a glitch and comes back, it seems like a really good community.

4 comments:

  1. First of all, congratulations on getting the offer - that's pretty cool in itself! Sorry to hear that things are difficult with your sister again though. I hope she comes around, but failing that, I'm still wondering if there's any way you could get someone else to go with you for the first few days/weeks until you feel more settled. Either your mum or another safe person. I know that it's not ideal, but there may not be any ideal options out there I'm afraid. Sometimes we're faced with picking the best option available even when none are great.

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    1. Thanks Matt :) I'm trying to keep positive, it's still up in the air right now, I'm finding it hard to feel positive right now as I've been let down/had so many problems before. But I do want to try. I may even have to start part time, which isn't ideal but it's something I guess.
      Vanessa
      PS I probably sound like a selfish cow but I want what's best for my sister too.

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  2. Congratulations on getting accepted Vanessa! I hope you decide to go, whether or not your sister does. I can understand that it'll be easier with her there but I'm sure you'll settle in after 1 or 2 weeks even on your own. And the jackets look good. You should definitely get one :p

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    1. Thanks :) I'll post in the next few days about what the plan is.
      You enabler you......;)
      Vanessa
      PS I've been wanting to watch that video you posted but my internet is playing up *grumbles*

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