I found out that our Chem 101 class films all it's lectures, so I told my sister this and lo and behold we can fit our classes in to 2 days by using the online lectures. Great right? Except now I'm kind of worried about missing the lectures in person....I mean they'll be exactly the same online (the slides are included and everything) but I just worry it'll make it too hard. We'll be attending all our tutes and pracs though so hopefully it'll be okay......I really want this to work out....cross your fingers for me please!
The other thing I'm struggling with is dependence. I don't want to be my sisters puppet. I don't want to be anybody's puppet for that matter, it's a horrible position to be in :( I'm wondering if (as I'm not working) I should try and take 3 subjects-meaning there'll be one I'll be doing completely separate from my sister, but then maybe I'd be taking on too much and trip myself up? I can of course drop the subject before census if needed.........what do you guys think?
I'm also having the thought that maybe I should cut my hair into a bob, like it'll somehow make me more professional and capable..........I have no idea where I get that feeling from. It's weird.
I'm also trying to get a firmer grip on my vision of the future and what's realistic and what's not. Is it realistic to want to study overseas or is it other people do and I never will? Will I ever get confident in social situations by myself? If I don't can I live with that? How can I live with that?
I watched a documentary of a guy who rode a horse across Mongolia to Hungary (http://www.timcopejourneys.com/page/journeys/on-the-trail-of-genghis-khan/) and I ached to do something like that, I want to have adventures and it's so frustrating that the only person stopping me is me.
Also I'm having a hard time understanding why people like baths.....it's all elbows and knees and slippery to boot.
I'd also kill for some pad thai right now....but the restaurant is an hour away......but christmas is the time to indulge yourself, right? Maybe not....
Also I'm loving this jacket, pity it's so expensive and it's, y'know summer:
Anyway that's it for now,
PS if you want to see something cool check out this 'average face of' link: http://justsomething.co/curious-study-calculates-the-average-female-face-for-each-country/